HATE MYSELF DE MOST!!!!

dono wen strt xrite d...anytng la...reli hate myself de most...cn any1 tel me wad 2 do??
say bek yterday....act..wen fri nite i ad vry behsyok hm...cz cme bek nt 5 me 1st...is pui fren 1st...
i dwn angry u..i jz fa my ownself pi qi...haiz...i tot he wil cme pui me go hme..bt gt ppl pui..bt nt him...is wen hau....thx u...i noe...wad u wnna tel me..i chose de...if menyesal aso my pasal..noe u 4 my own gd...bt i reli love hm...de tng i cn say....den de nx day...i tek nun...so mrng go out v hm..wen fri nite..he tel me sat 9lk dat cme fetch me...i wke up on7.45 help mum do tng...wait til 9 le...he nvr cl or wad...i sengaja dwn cl hm de....i wn c dat he gt xin wn meet me n c me bo...dono 9smetng lk dat he cl me le...wait til 9.40 lk dat he cme fetch me d...den go eat n the store...walk walk...den go hs hse...saw hs sis...i so sked ler..den hs sis vry frendly ler..so luckly...ntg lo..hs sis buy 1 belt 4 me...so nice...gt tme i post it up...lk it so much...i tel hs sis thx...hs sis samur tel me de oldest sis aso buy duno shirt or skirt 4 me ler..den hs sis ask my height n weight...sobsob..i heavier den hs sis ler...say truly...his sis vry pretty ler...samur slim...jelous...den 2 smetng go work le...he pui me go down jiu go le..cz he wn go out v hs fren...in his heart fren mur important den me!!!den duno 5smetng he sudenly cme 5 me...den v go liu de cai shen ye n mny la...so hpy..den he hv 2 go tke dinner v lam parent le...nvm lo..nite he cmin pui me go bek...i c de tme...i tnk xtme d la..xsempat d...bt at lz minit...he reach jor...so hpy...hehe...den cme my hse til 11.30 jiu go out v fren liao...b4 he goin bek..he say me...mny la...wen he go oli...my tear vry automatic drop le..duno hw 2 stop le... haiz...den msg msg...he sudenly nvr rply me...i sengaja dwn slp..wn wait hm go hme n msg me wn...wait til 1smetng le...xmsg!...geram..i msg go...he rply dat he tot me slp liao...wth!!!i nvr slp...cz i so wory u..nvr tel me go whr..doin wad...i so angry...wen he at outside...i cnt even gt gd slp!!!wil asyk awke!!!asyk c de fon....although gt msg...i dwn rply...dwn gv hm noe i nvr slp...de oni way i cn do...he 4lk dat oli slp...i tnk he 2day sur cnt wke up pui me eat lunch d...bt he gt cme...aihz...again hpen...fren fren fren!!!@.@ duno wn 2 tel hm wads my feelin...do wad i dono...al aso dono...so geram..trus off my hp...haiz..wen open i so sad...jz 2 or 1 msg nia..cl lgsg bo!!!reli lk heart broken...den 6smetng i open bek my fon...he fon cme...wn pui he go eat...den go lo..wen at bailing...v talk smentg again...2 aso dwn lyn each othr...i jz keept quiet...he vry kejar masa...haiz...wen reach my hme...i wn 2 hug n tel hm i luv u so much..dnt leave me alone...duno y i nvr do wad...act wen wn reach my hme..my tears dropin le..mby is i noe wen i say dat out..i wil cry...i dwn gv hm noe...den i jz dwn c hm n go up..wen i heard hs car sound far d...i stp at de stairs n cry cry...go up le...fon hm...n tel hm sry...he noe i cry le...haiz....sory...den go bath...cry kao kao!!den cme out d...msg 1 lng msg gv hm...say wn gv hm freedom n so on...at lz he dwn...i was so hpy....i noe u cre me!!i mur cre u!!u in my heart is so important!!mby i reli selfish...bt evytng i do jz wn u gd nia...hate myself de most reli....sked u wil leave me alone...say truly....couple v u...i cnt feel de an quan gan...dats y i so sked...u cn say quite hndsme...kenal so mny gal...alw msg v gal...mny ppl lk u aso...bt me!!jz lk a c2pig ppl...alw ikat u til vry ketat...me!!shui yang!!!xusE!!!soHAI!!nt a gd gf!!xpretty!!!samur treat u nt gd!!!!
dats de problem...i wil sked u wil gv othr ppl rampas go...haiz...bt i cn say...i wil try my bst 2 nt do dat....haiz...tc..rmber i luv u!!!!jz U!!!!